Pathway For Selfseeds

Ashram Floor Painting with sand art

A lot of personal transformation is an understatement right now from my spiritual seeking in India.  Blogging for Waltzing Horses and Selfseeds has been lovely.  One for the spiritual depth and the other for the physical reality.  My motivation for moving to India and diving into a 6-8 hour meditation process at the feet of an authentic, non-glamourized Guru has been to answer one of the oldest, deepest questions, “Who Am I?”  We are all on the path and at various stages.  I have been looking directly under the hood for 25 years and then took this last step to try and reach the root of it all.  I can understand why not everyone is seeking at this intensity.  It isn’t always a walk in the park to look at the depths of your fears, doubts, and belief systems that create pain and separation from the truth.

All of the reading, studying, inner listening, teachings from spiritual beings of various levels, sharing with friends on the path, grace, etc. have all been part of the recipe for the recent spiritual epiphany.  When I look over the Waltzing Horses blog  http://waltzinghorses.blogspot.com/  ,  it all makes sense in a very linear, scientific order.  My background is science (genetics) and my brain works in that way, so finding a path to the heart has required telling my ego to sit down/chill out–a lot.

What next?  No idea, but for now I will experience life through this new vision-a rebirth of sorts or a dismantling of the old to get to the truth of  “Who I am.”  The view is remarkable and worth the walk through fire to understand what is possible.  In many ways, Selfseeds becomes more profound as a program.   The inclusion of stillness has the potential for inner transformation as a continuation to the path for unfolding inner peace.   Selfseeds was created as an offering for managing our beings on a physical, mental, and emotional level, but now the Selfseed becomes the deepest truth of our inner process.

For now, I will continue with both blogs and enjoy how they allow for electronic communication.  Taking and sharing pictures has been lovely too.  The richness of colors and tapestry of differences is stunning at times as I move through this very different world of elephants, camels, shrines, saris, and more.